I feel like I have so many things I want to say lately, but never the presence of mind to actually say them, so I’ll try to summarize.
I’m in a kind of weird place as far as the move goes. It’s just a strange feeling. I guess I thought I would feel like a whole different person after finally making the leap and moving away, but I feel the mostly the same.
Not completely the same though – I do feel a little out of place and generally awkward. I don’t quite fit in here yet and I feel a little bit lost, but I’m completely okay with that. I’ve always liked the feeling of being a small fish in a big pond. The anonymity of it excites me.
I’m also really excited about the future and seeing how things go out here. Everything is so open and unknown and I have no idea what the next days, weeks and months are going to look like. It’s kind of thrilling.
Lastly, I really miss my people. It takes a long time to obtain a group of people who know you from the inside out and love you for exactly who you are. It’s something to be cherished, and I miss those people dearly.
For instance, I miss the SIL, who among many things was my wine person back in Oklahoma. She kept me in the know. Now, I have to seek out my own wines.
Abby recently mentioned that she liked this Vineyard, so when I saw a bottle of their Merlot I decided to give it a whirl.
The problem is, I don’t really think I like Merlot? Either that or I just don’t know what it’s supposed to taste like. I like most reds – Cabs, Pinot Noirs and Malbecs are my favorites – but I don’t have a go-to Merlot that I enjoy.
It’s okay though, it’s good to try new things. They may not always turn out exactly the way you expected them to, but the experience is (almost) always worth it.
My life has become a whirlwind of newness, and even though it’s different than I thought it would be, I love it. I wouldn’t change a thing.
Do you like to be a big fish in a small pond, or a little fish in a big pond?
Any favorite Merlots I should try?